HOW TRUE THAT IMPERFECTION HOLDS BEAUTY..?

“Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring.”
― Marilyn Monroe, Marilyn

The above sounds so motivating.. But currently I felt the other way round. I in the ambience of demotivating myself. I felt so lonely despite a truthful and loyal husband who kept me uprising. I'm truly feeling the lost. It's creepy to admit that I'm a bit falling apart. But here I am feeling sorry for myself and filling the grievance again.

People said time will heal but I'm starting to doubt it. I can start to feel that my feelings of missing Ghaziy is becoming to be featured as an active volcano. Couldn't talk about having this feeling with anyone even to my darling Saiful. He'd be devastated too as he's been trying hard to make me as happy as he could.

I begin to feel that my life is filling up with imperfection. Upon delivering Ghaziy I felt that my life was truly perfected. No words no money and nothing in this world could replace the joy and gratitude when I gave birth to him on 12.12.2010. A beautiful and greatest gift for my wedding anniversary.

Loosing him for nearly 3 months causes me to reach the limit of trying to be optimist. I'm getting to feel that there's a big round hole in me. That's what I called my imperfection. And, there's no beauty that I could extract from such feeling...

"Oh dear Allah the Almighty, give me the strength for this challenges you've vested in me..." and I'm gonna keep on praying for such strength so as to have hope to see the beauty of my little piece of imperfect life..

A walk to remember...

It's almost 2 months since Ghaziy departed from this world. I surely misses him a lot. Couldn't describe the pain in a conclusive word..despite the bitterness I'd always redha. I'm going through my lifetime with my best buddy, my betterhalf i.e. the darling Saiful Nizam.

As promised in my previous post, I shall continue the story of a tremendous holiday I had beginning of 2012.

As its a fact that the whole family was going to Penang for Amil's wedding, my husband and I planned to have a new year 'escapade'.. And my sister Elly had the same thought too. So we booked our stay at Vistana Penang. We started to depart from KL after subuh, with an excitement. Daniel, Adam n Ra'ees were full with enthusiast as they hadn't gone for a Holliday quite sometime.

My sis had a big plan for our new eve dinner... The rest of the pictures would be a great memoirs of our walk that to be remembered. A holiday where all of us companies each others' lost...

Thanx Kak Che' for the great dinner..

BEGINNING OF 2012

It's been a while since my last post... A bit busy lately since me n hubby had a wonderful new year eve in Penang.
Celebrated the eve with my dear sis Elly and her 3 musketeers Daniel, Adam and Ra'ees.

Had a great moment in Hard Rock Penang, enjoyed our stay in Vistana and definitely nasi kandar and pasembor..

The main reason we went to Penang was to attend my cousin's wedding.. We took the opportunity to make it as part of our trip to rejuvenate ourselves.

We'll tell more about the trip later. ..anyway congratulation to the newly weds Amil and Wani..